Monday, January 31, 2005

The night is over - say GOODNIGHT...

The night is over, should end in less than 8 minutes- Monday's over. January 2005 is through... enter new month, February 2005 - Valentines' coming near, me? DATE? NAN ADO!!!!!! :((

Oh well.. why should I think about it now when I can think about it today or the day after? Anyways, tomorrow is just another day! :)

Isn't amazing how cepat masa berlalu now? Macam itwas only yesterday I came back to AS and now, dah sebulan.. :) My my...
Anyways, time to sleep now. Noticed tak how I've been sleeping early nowadays, kan kan kan? So baik now.. ekekeke

Tomorrow wake up sahur and solat subuh lagik.. then.. start jenguk2 kat office my daddy northern branch nih.. arrghh! WORK! Tak suke nye! Dah naik lemak tak keje, now nak kene keje, ahhh bohsannye. Walaupun keje dengan daddy's company, still, malasnye!!!!!!!

Oh well.. I think ought to go to bed... and cry myself to sleep again! Eheheheh .. kidding... ;p

Regards
LEA - Am such a DQ am I? ;p

Diva la Diva

Just a general entry this one - DIVA...

We hear the word often - I PERSONALLY used the word kindda like often too. But does anyone knows what DIVA really means? Its history - it's real definition? As this is my 101th entry, I hereby put an entrt on - DIVA

Diva is the Latin and Italian word for "goddess", the feminine form of the Latin word divus (= "god").

Time Magazine observed in its October 21, 2002 issue: "By definition, a diva is a rampaging female ego redeemed only in part by a lovely voice." The word was originally used of great female opera singers, almost always sopranos (like Maria Callas), but can be used to describe many female celebrities, such as singers, movie actresses, or athletes.

As with the earlier "prima donna, " which was also derived from opera (lit. "first lady"), the term has slipped from its trade origins and come to be used in any theatrical or performative setting. In particular, because of marketing efforts, the word "diva" has come to be applied most often to popular female performers. In current usage, many people seem to understand "diva" as meaning any female singer, but this is incorrect.

There are many women who are world famous divas, among them Aretha Franklin, Diana Ross, Cher, Tina Turner, Mariah Carey, Carole King, Joni Mitchell, Natalie Cole, Julie Andrews, Liza Minnelli, Carly Simon, Barbra Streisand, Judy Garland, Peggy Lee, Doris Day, Lena Horne, Billie Holiday, Ella Fitzgerald, Sarah Vaughan, Dinah Washington, Nina Simone, Patti LaBelle, Etta James, Gladys Knight, Roberta Flack, Chaka Khan, Donna Summer, Olivia Newton-John, Linda Ronstadt, Dolly Parton, Emmylou Harris, Tammy Wynette, Loretta Lynn, Patsy Cline, Karen Carpenter, Bette Midler, Dionne Warwick, Janis Joplin, Annie Lennox, Patti Smith, Deborah Harry, Stevie Nicks, Chrissie Hynde, Dusty Springfield, Anne Murray, Connie Francis, Brenda Lee, Meryl Streep and among athletes, Lisa Leslie and Brandi Chastain--- The list goes on---> and yes, Lea Laurielle Lai Lee would be the last on that list - the most current and recent Diva... ;p Yeah right!

A less-used Italian word, Divo, describes male super stars.

As of late, diva has had a negative connotation, as the word can be used to imply that the star believes the only thing that matters is his or her person, and that everyone involved in a project must cater to his or her every whim! Ehehehe

Regards
Diva Lea - Feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling kan??? ;p Well, everyone has his/her own right to, erm, daydream abt being a diva! How I wish I could be one...

It's my 100th Blog Entry at Myspace.com!!!!!!!

Ladies and gentlement, I bring you - my 100th blog entry!!!

Kwang kwang kwangg! Can you imagine? Dah sampai seratus (100) dah? Isk isk isk... dasat tu! Ekekeke. Anyways, I couldn't reach this digits if it wasn't for you guys - the readers - yang beri sokongan, moral support and stuff... thank you! I coun't make it without you. And yes I would like thank all my fans, my readers, the press, media, the world, the universe, and not forgetting my sick on and off Granny - yang selalu ku guna namanye... my parents - although diaorang tak selalu disebut inside this blog u two will always be in my heart - CEH! WHAT IS THIS? Nobel Prize acceptance speech? Chit!

Anyways...after my last entry just now, had a cooolld shower - boy that was a relief... then katanye nak nap sekejap. Sedar2 mak tok dah calling malling for me for berbuka... tertidur setengah jam sunndellll!!!! Ekekeke.. bangun, mamai sekejap.. gi cuci muka and then terus berbuka... ahhhhh THAT feeling of AAAHHH SEDAPP NYE air sejuk!!! Mueieueiueieueieu

Lepas berbuka - solat terus. Then only baru kemas dapur. Pas kemas dapur, tgk tv for awhile dengan mak tok - BERITA la what else? True - I JARANG tgk TV. Who needs TV when you have INTERNET? Kwang kwang kwang! Then baca a page or two from quran japs then Isya' and then, SETAN NAIK TANDUK SURUH MASUK ONLINE! Ehehehehe and here I am.. ;p

My my... we're moving into February already? Gosh!

Guess what? It's JANUARY 31st already!!!

"Happy February 1st 2005 peeps!"
Errr- Apekah temanye entry ini???

Regards,
LEA

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Brand New Me - Brand New Lea - Brand New Feeling!

ust had this idea of writing this one... just a luahan hati

NOW... I don't think I wanna keep bothering about all those craps (craps or crabs? Hhhhmmm) , rumors and what not yang been surrounding me like dark clouds. I wanna be free. Biarlah what ppl say about me or tuduh, or hina or what not, janji I KNOW WHO I AM and I KNOW I'M WITH HIM and ONLY HIM *Thank you Abang Jeff p**la***m**p*@yahoo.com for having said to ask me to think and act wisely last night over YM! Ehehehe I KNOW U'RE READING THIS!!!!!! Thank you.. eheheh* Seriously... I think I have become somewhat a better person this 2005. Started off sick as like am gonna die the next day but I guess, after a GREAT FALL, here I am, BANGUN BALIK AND JADI A BETTER PERSON. I guess it's true what ppl/ org2 tua said. Jatuh mengajar kita utk berjalan dengan lebih baik kerana luka dari kita terjatuh itu sunggu perit adakalanya pedih... :) I know ppl make mistakes, and so did I. I know ppl learn from mistakes, some don't, BUT I DID! It's just a matter of letting things go on as it is. We can'tstop ppl from hating us, from making rumors... so let it be. Biarkan. Janji I'm HAPPY and feeling SAFE and feeling MUCH BETTER now... THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO HAVE HELPED ME GET BACK STANDING BACK ON MY FEET! May only GOD BALAS BALIK JASA U OLS.

Before this, I care too much about what ppl say,what ppl do, and what ppl think about/to/for me. TOO MUCH. Sampai I let it controlled my life. Yang betul pun I concern, itu tak pe la kan. NIH YANG TAK BETUL I DAH SEPARUH MATI PIKIR MACAM MACAM. I think it's time I put a stop to everything! I cannot let ppl yang dengki suka buat citer buruk2 semue nih ruin my life - I CANNOT LET THESE FEW STUPID PATHETIC FREAKS RUIN MY LIFE or else, I'm not the girl most of my true friends thought I was... :)))

What? I hear more rumours? BIAR la....
What? I hear more ppl hate me? BIAR la....
What? More bad news, insults, tuduhan palsu about me? BIAR la....

WHAT? I NOTICED I GAIN WEIGHT? Bbbbbiiaa... EEEEEEEEH! MANA LEH BIARKAN LAH! Ish! This is another thing. I gain weight la ppl! How ek? Ish... confirm balik KL nanti gem gems.. ekeke (THAT a short for GEMUK) Hmmmm... dah naik gile2 babeng dah nih. Nak nyatakan my berat now? Ish... jgn.. kang terkejut kang... balik AS early Jan, 55/54kg... NOW dah 65kg! HOW!?!?!?!?!? Punye lah penat2 mek usahakan nak turun berat badan, worked my way from 64kg to 60kg to 58kg to finally get back 54kg! And that was like for 2 months kot, ke 3 months... cam tu ah. Tak der lah exceeding 3 months process. NOW? Balik 1st week AS ok lah, maintain. Some said I makin kurus and cengkung ade lah sbb biasalah time tu, problematic lagik kot. NOW? ADO? Lepas dah set thing straight, got my arah tujuan and felt calmed and relaxed disamping-Nya and HIS ajaran... DAHHHHH KAKI MAKAN PULAK! Ish! Takut ah! I think mainly becoz I never skipped any meal sbb dah I yang masak, confirm asyik makan jer, kan? Ekekeke And plus my only work now is taking care of my granny. So much for running here and there, tak macan dulu. Hmmmm.. I have to sit down and think about this one lah.. tak leh abaikan.. ekekeke

Oh well! Time to reply mails! Well.. catch up with you guys later during the day.. afternoon karang ke.. ok?

Regards
LEA

Sunday, January 23, 2005

A Walk To Remember - [MISS MALAYSIA DIVA PAGEANT 2003/2004] Part IV - THE FINALS!

A Walk To Remember - [MISS MALAYSIA DIVA PAGEANT 2003/2004] Part IV

Well here we are... after a long, tak der lah long mananye pun... short few seconds break, at last, we're in the final chap of the 4 part epic blog of Miss Malaysia - A Walk to remember.... eheheh.. FINALLY!

Ok... lets not waste anymore time. Kejap... nak recall balik... ok ok... hmmm

Ok. After that Miss Berkemban Malay Tradition Swinwear night tu, that was like in October 1st... I sort of like had two months to prepare for the finals... Disamping itu jugak, I memang sibuk flying. Tapi dah tgh sibuk fly2 pun, tetap practice q/a dlm bilik waktu nightstops memana, tetap bukak bijik mata surveyed for accessories yang meletop letup, then carik2 kasut, shopping boleh tahan jugak lah sebulan dua tu. Habis jugak duit aku. Ekekek. But anyways, didn�t concentrate much, not until end of November tu. Kindda like last minute prep jugak. CNN ade jugak melaporkan hal hal contestants yang lain to me when I balik KL after flights ke ape ke. Sempat eden bertanya kan CNN pasal Miss Perak State reps� preparations. CCN cakap her evening dress is in PINK. Ewww, PINK!? Well, cannot say anything yet, not until malam tu bile I nampak that dress. Silap hari bulan, cantik. Tanye lagi CNN, ape lagi citer? CNN cakap banyak orang confident in me winning, tak kurang jugak yang cakap I MIGHT just fall second again to PERAK as she was afterall a cool competitor� Hmmmm.. Apa apa jer la. Lagi? CNN said� rumors here and there in KL that I got sponsored 100% for the finals. Addinch!!!! Kalau 100%, tak yah buat pe pe la. Goyang kaki and bontot jer la for the finals, kan? Rumors, I wonder bile its gonna end. And the FINAL CNN! For the final night, only 15 states competing! The runner-up semuenya hanya backing up in case anything were to happened to the State Rep. Kan ade State Rep tarik diri, so first runner-up kenalah take over. Reason being sbb diaorang akan buat Mr and Ms Malaysia 2003/2004 Pageant serentak! Memang time kitaorang sibuk compete for state reps, Mr. Malaysia Pageant 2003/04 pun tgh berlansung hangat. The exact same thing cuma it was for men only la kan. Ehehehe. So the organizers nak buat serentak. So�nak cut time and what not, runners up last minute hanye stand by kalau state rep tak jadik masuk. Kesian kan?

So basically what would actually happened malam finals tu macam nih.
- Introduction round in Traditional State Costume Mr. and Ms
- Brief parade in Traditional Costume Mr and Ms
- Evening Wear category Mr and Ms
- Announcement of Subsidiary title winners Mr and Ms
- Top 5 result Mr and Ms
- Q/A between top 5 with selected judges Mr and Ms
- Results Mr and Ms Malaysia 2003/04
PS- Of course my main highlight would be the Miss Malaysia jer la ek? Mr Malaysia tu, tunggu ah sikit tahun I buat review/recalling ek? :)

Ok, so, like, erm� after surveyed sana, surveyed sinik, shopping sana shopping sinik, larik sana sinik dengan Kak Vee yang also bertungkus lumus nak membantu me in preparing for the finals� I finally managed to get everything ready just two three days before the final night, December 20th.

- Traditional State wear, gold lace kebaya top, filled with diamonds and embroideries, with matching green and gold batik sarung. For this category, I decided to use a simple ruby earrings (which I already had �em� need not to shop anymore for that thingie � bende yang leh save, save la kan�. Ehehehe), dua cucuk sanggul silver dangling, two yellow roses (fake ones of course), gelang tangan gold diamonds and also kipas tangan kayu with dangling lace.. (kipas tu buat sendiri tau � the dangling ruffles and lace that is� hehehe)
- For evening dress round, Abang Roy, yang sponsored my traditional state wear tu, also sponsored my dres for this round. Dia guna kain batik lepas Jawa, (memang dia gi carik khas for me tau� love that guy!) Memang cantik kain tu punye designs and siap with scattered diamonds lagi. But he added more diamonds as he knew I ratu diamond pun. Ehehehe. Accessories for my evening dress, just two simple diamond bracelets, and a diamond drop choker, and yes, it did come with a matching earrings. Ehehehe� Hair accessories, just a diamond butterfly clip (a bi one ok!) and an orange flower (bunga apa tah Kak Vee guna. Tah I pun tak tahu bunga ape tapi it matched my dress well� )
- For both dresses, I guna one pair of heels jer. Senang. Malas nak tukar2. Lagipun, I bought those Vincci shoes in goldish creamed colour. So matched well dengan my both dresses. Bukannye orang or judges as for that matter nak tengok in detail pun, kan?

Ha� itu la dia. Dah ready for the finals. Just a three four days before the pageants final night tu, everything was sort of like, settled. Kak Vee pun ade jugak test make up with me. She wanna know ape yang dia nak buat for me during the finals. And thus she wanted to know what I think. I said to her something like this;

�Kak Vee,� make up you ols la yang buatkan hem menang Miss Penang. Make up you ols jugak lah yang buatkan hem berseri- seri malam berkemban hari tu. Dan make up you ols nak buat untuk finals nih, terserah la. You ols dah tahu selok belok muka hem. Hem dinch worry la dengan kemampuan you ols. Buat jer yang terbaik. The rest, hem cuba jugak usahan dan the remaining, tgk nasib malam tu�. Dinch risau la you ols, hem dinch kisah la you ols nak make up macam mana. Janji meletop!�

I like to make things easier for her as well. I leh jadik fussy, ngokngekngokngek. Kang nanti, sentap. Tannak lah. I nak dia keje dengan I dalam keadaan happy dan tak tension. Baru make up dia menjadik. Kang dia tgh sentap, make up ke mana, ape ke mana, tul tak?

The two dresses I picked up a day before the pageant. Waktu tu I baru balik from a single nightstop flight dari mana tah� waktu picking up the dresses, I met Miss Perak State rep tgh ambil her dresses from another designer yang boutique nye tak der lah that far from Abang Roy�s boutique. Jeling sana jeling sini, addinch nampak what was in that boutiques� paper bag that she was carrying! Chis! Chimpeng tul!

Tunggu punye tunggu punye tunggu, makan tak lalu, tidur tak leh nak lena, December 19th tibe. It was the first rehearsals for finals. Went well. As usual. JANJI at 3pm, yang datang at 3pm, ADO? Ade lah beberape kerat jer yang datang. Most of them came around 3.30pm. Tak per la. Nampak sangat tak disciplined. Tgk me? I arrived 15 minutes earlier tau, only to find out Miss Perak and Pahang state rep dah arrived 5 minutes ahead of me.
So practice pi practice mai, habis la first day practice at 6pm. Then malam, me lepak with Kak Vee. Did my nails, hands and feet, lepak minum2, (ADDDINCH MAKAN OK! A NIGHT BEFORE CONTEST, NEVER EAT ANYTHING�) then Kak Vee slept over at my place. Then masuk tidur kindda like a bit early. By 11pm dah tidur.


DECEMBER 20th 2003

Pagi2 buta dah jaga dah. 9am went breakfast. Then duduk umah kejap. Relaxed and what not. 12pm gi final rehearsals. Again most of them sampai lewat. Biase lah. Yesterday tu kan Friday night, semuenye nak happening ler kot. Kak Vee didn�t come along as she wanna ensure everything was set up for me to get ready and do my make up after I balik rehearsals. So as we finished rehearsing, we had a short briefing;

- Contestants had to be there LATEST by 6.45pm
- One contestant, one make up artiste/ assistant
- Crowd would be arriving by 8.00pm ++
- Contestants were advised to keep the level of professionalism to a high level as VIPs and VVIPs would be there that night
- Etc � tak important pun for me�

Rehearsals habis around 3.30pm. I said to myself, THAT�S IT! Habis la. Kak Vee needs at least 2 solid hours� sempat ke nak siap? Tgh drive pun pening kepala datang lah. Migraine, biasa la. Most of the contestants siap kat situ jer, I mean, diaorang siap kat venue jer. But knowing me, I cerewet. Nak mandi dulu la, itu ini lagik� susah. So I decided to balik jer and get ready at home.

Balik rumah, mandi, siap2 semua, baring, Kak Vee start make up. I terlelap. Sedar2 twas like 6.15pm. Got up. TERKEJUT tgk my make up! Flawless Kak Vee make upkan I. Then twas the hairdo. Dia lilit sana lilit sini, sepit sana sini, then 6.30pm, I dah SIAP. Rushed bagai nak rak nih. Drive serupe pelesit jer. Sampai kat venue 7.15pm. I thought that�s it lah. Habis la aku! Alih2, ado!? Ade lagi ramai yang tak sampai! Argh!!! TENSIONNYE waktu tu!

So I relaxed� Kak Vee touch up sikit. We laughed, chatted a bit, smoked, and what not. By 7.45pm baru start tukar to my state dress. As usual, when I pakai jer my dress tu, the whole room macam.. �wwooooooo�� sama macam time I masuk the changing room tu. Everyone tgk me like, � �woooooo�� ape hal? Heheheh Ape kes? Kak Vee betulkan itu ini and after that get ready semuenye, she asked me to sit down. And dia taburkan glitters gold and silver all over me and sprayed glitters spray all over my body, neck, hands, legs, all over my la termasuk my dress and hair, so that as stage nanti, kena jer spotlight, memang glittering habis ahhh me nanti kate Kak Vee�

Sementara waiting for everyone to get ready and what not, contest patutnye start at 8.30pm, tapi twas already 8.15pm, crowd belum ramai. Oh. Lupe wanna tell the details of the finals�
Event: Mr Malaysia and Miss Malaysia Diva Pageant 2003/2004
Venue: Orange Club, just off Jalan Pinang � Jalan Kia Peng
Time: 8.00pm- Arrival of Guests
8.30pm- Competition Begins
VIP/VVIPs: Ade la some Tan Sris and Datos� with their wives and what not. Ramai la jugak. One corner dalam Orange Club tu untuk diaorang jer, VVIPs and VIPs.
Judges: Maria Farida (actress), Aleeza Kasim (actress/model), Sara Loo (ex-Miss Malaysia), Sheila Rusli (actress), Syed Abu Bakar (Erra Fazira's Manager), Vernon (Ning Baizura's Manager), Zul Yahya (actor), Rosnah Mat Aris (actress)

Lepas tu, after awhile they said the contest dah about to start. I just cut things short la ek. Tak yah la into details sangat ape I buat dalam changing room and what not, ape I borak semue tu, tak yah la ek? Ekekekeke. Oh tapi this I have to tell. Ade some contestants, kesian I tgk. Ade yang by 8pm make up tak sudah2 lagi. Ade yang 8.15pm, costumes/dresses tak sampai sampai lagi. Ade tu, tgh menangis gabra la, ade yang panic lah, itu la ini la, ADE YANG GADUH dengan make up artiste la. Ish. Sabar jer lah! Yang Mr Malaysia contestants, ade yang dari muka cute, terus lasam sbb salah touch ups. Ade yang Mr Malaysia tu, punye lah CANTIK patutnye masuk Miss Malaysia. Ade yang tak sehsuweeii langsung. Macam macam ragam lah dalam changing room tu. 15 Miss Malaysia contestants, 15 Mr Malaysia� pepaham jer lah how riuh rendah amik gambar la itu la ini la� :)

So anyways, contest dah nak mula� jengjejeng!

Mr Malaysia 2003/2004 and MISS MALAYSIA DIVA PAGEANT 2003/2004

Opening was some shows from some paperdoll dancers. Great show though. Pastu the mc was great. Talk here talk there, sampai lupa nak get the ball rolling. Keji tak? Ehehehe. So when the music started, there we went, parading in our State costumes, with our Mr state sendirian berhad lah. Me had my Mr. Penang by myside� so cute� so fair, so� so�so� *sigh* so lembut! Sedeh! I had this big smile of my face when I walked down the steps to the stage, through the crowds, roaring and cheering for me! And not to mention to some other contestants also la kan. And then lepas dah catwalk segala malai, came the introduction round. Me as usual did my normal opening speech macam states selections dulu tu la, ade la lebih sana sini sikit.

�Assalamualaikum and a very good evening Malaysia! 24 years old, 5�11� and 125pounds, and countin� em down still, came all the way from the historical island known as The Pearl of the Orient, I�m Nur Lea Laurielle Lai Lee Abdullah, proudly representing, PENANG!� And yes, the usuals, the crowd went wild! Good I jual nearly 30 tickets to crew members and my outsider friends� ehehehehe� SATU BUS tu� ekekek.

Ok lepas semue contestants dah siap bercerekarama berdialog berceloteh semue tu, berintroduksi semue for BOTH categories, we all catwalked one by one again, for a minute or so, then we went back to the changing room and changed into our Evening wear/ formal wear for Mr Malaysia candidates. Mine, was like, memenuhi citarasa contest. Nothing too modern, nothing too old. Oh! Miss Peraks� dress, MEMANG cantik; IF THE PINK WAS NOT MATCHED WITH GOLD LINING INSIDE THE PINK LACE! Ewww! But great design and she pakai it very like, cantik la on her! Coz she�s fair, kan� Ehehehe

Before we, Miss Malaysia girls came down, the Mr Malaysia finalist paraded first. Tak perlu I reviewkan pasal diaorang ek?

So lepas Mr Malaysia finalists came out in their formal wear, baru we came down from the spiral staircase, down to the dance floor, through the audience, and then up to the stage where Fazli (the one of the finalist in Malaysian Idol tu ler), he was up there, on the stage, taking one contestant at a time by the hands, sambil dia menyanyi lagu BEAUTIFUL MARIA live! Ok! Memang sedap! Meremang bulu roma dengar suara dia live menyanyi sambil like, memberi tangannye, menyambut my hand, up to the stage. Sweet sangat! So catwalk pi catwalk mai, tu la� habis lah sudah contest two category tu. Nampak macam cepat kan? Sbb it�s in here, kalau actual malam tu, boleh tahan lamanye jugak sebab each contestant took their own sweeeeeeeet time feeling feeling lebih atas stage tu. Ehehehehe I know I DID TOO! Ehehe.

So lepas tu, ade some shows, and then they called us up to the stage again. This time, the subsidiary titles�

-Miss Personality: Miss Penang
-Miss Hot Favourite: Miss Penang
-Miss Exotic Look: Miss Perak
-Miss Body Beautiful: Miss Negeri Sembilan *BIG HUGE MISTAKE FOR THE NIGHT!!! They salah announced the winner, which was supposed to be ME! Waktu tu muka I dah masam a bit, crowd yang tahu about this pun semuenye hairan. I was a bit upset. MOTIF salah sebut pemenang!!?!?!
-Best Legs: Miss Penang
-Best Traditional Wear: Miss Perak
-Best Evening Wear: Miss Penang
-Miss Congeniality: Miss Selangor
-Overall winner for Miss Malaysia Swimwear round: Miss Penang and Miss Perak

Mr Malaysia punye results nak jugak ke? Tak ingat lah� sorry! Top 5 ingat lah! Ehehehe
And then later was the final top 5 results: Twas in no merit order;
1. Miss Kelantan 1. Mr Sarawak
2. Miss Perak 2. Mr Selangor
3. Miss Negeri Sembilan 3. Mr Negeri Sembilan
4. Miss Malacca 4. Mr Johor
5. Miss Penang 5. Mr Pahang

At this point, I was so surprised Miss Selangor and Miss Pahang didn�t make it into the top 5. Miss Selangor won Miss Congen� Miss Pahang was overall 2nd best in Malam Berkemban� How could that be? Macam, pelik ah!? Tapi yang penting, PERAK was in top 5! Habis lah aku! As for Mr, erm, nak komen ke? Tak yah la ek?

So here comes the Q and A session. I will NOT tell the details of Miss Kelantan, Miss Malacca�s Q and A session. Cannot. Sedeh sangat lah! Bukan hina, tapi sedeh! Sbb tu I tannak letak. Kang ape orang kata. I saje nak buruk2kan diaorang. Tannak ah!

*Shit! It�s 2am already! Tak habis2 lagik nih!*

(MY ANSWERS FOR MISS PERAK AND MISS NEGERI SEMBILAN, SEINGAT2 I LA OK? IN MY WORDS LAH. TAPI WHAT I TULIS HERE, SIKIT2 SAMA LA MACAM APA DIAORANG CAKAP TU)

So q and a session Perak was like this; she pilih judge Maria Farida�s question;

MF: Miss Perak, you think you stand a chance to win tonight?

MP: Terima kasih daun keladi diatas soalan yang telah diberi. Saya rasa, semua peserta pada malam ini ada peluang masing2 utuk menang. Tapi semuanye bergantung kepada cara pembawakan diri masing2 dan jugak kita tidak patut tolak ketepi soal nasib. Bagi saya, berada di tangga top 5 ini sudah cukup bererti dan saya rasa peluang saya masih ada untuk menang, akan tetapi, menilai persoalan NASIB? Saya masih tidak mampu menjawab. Terima kasih.

*a very safe and intelligent answer, she was good!

Q and a for Negeri was something like this; she picked Zul Yahya�s question;

ZY: Sekiranya anda boleh tanye sesuatu pada saya, apakah yang akan anda tanyekan?

MNS: Emmm� bila nak kawin?

*she was funny. she tackled the q well. The crowd loved this girl so much that suddenly I felt, threatened.

And I picked Syed- Erra's Managers' question which went something like this;

S:If you were given that chance to live your life again as someone else, who would you be and why?

ME: If I have that chance, I would probably choose to relive my life as myself again. I�ve made a lot of mistakes in my life, and I�ve learned a lot from my many mistakes. And so, if I had to relive my life again, I would only wanna be myself as I know now what to do to make me a better person and wont be repeating the same mistakes again� Thank you.

*I know twas a bit running here running there hiding behind the bush before I get to my point, but twas a good answer, kan? Ceh puji lagik!

Lepas tu Mr Malaysia pulak buat Q and A�and then bla bla bla bla. Ade lah dalam setengah jam tunggu, results out. Setengah jam tu, ade la stand up comedies, shows and bla bla bla. So waktu menunggu tu lah, amik kesempatan bergambar lah, bergossip lah, touch up la. Me? Isap rokok and put my contact lense eye drop. Pedih / kering sangat mata malam tu! Touch up muka sikit. Amik gambar. Then they called us all up for the results. They announced serentak� here we go! The results!

- 4th Runner-up (5th Place): Mr Johor and Miss Kelantan
- 3rd Runner-up (4th Place): Mr Sarawak and Miss Malacca
- 2nd Runner-up (3rd Place): Mr Negeri Sembilan and Miss Negeri Sembilan

Then� they called up the last two candidates for Mr Malaysia to step forward. Then they announced the winner; 1st Runner-up was Mr Selangor and the new Mr Malaysia 2003/2004 was Mr Pahang (expected) So crowning and bla bla bla semua dah settle� Happy� Tunggu la dia kat situ for his MS Malaysia, hehhee! God! He wish!

Then, about Miss Malaysia�
MC: Would the two lovely ladies please step forward pls. This is a very intense moment for both of you, I know, but need me to remind here, to both of you and to everyone; IF for whatever reason the new Miss Malaysia Diva 2003/2004 cannot, by any chance, fulfill her duties and reign as the new title holder, then, the 1st Runner-up will take up her place. This is it. You girls are ready?

By waktu nih, Miss Perak dah pegang2 tangan I dah. And we were like whispering to each other. She said �You�re gonna win� and I said �NO, you will win, girl�� Walhal I wanted to win the title soooo much!

MC: Ladies, what can I say? You two are fabulous, you two looked absolutely radiant and perfectly beautiful, but the judges had come to their decisions and there can only be one winner for tonight. Ladies and gentlemen, I bring you, the 1st Runner-up, she is� *slowly the MC jalan towards Miss Perak and then pegang her shoulders and then the crowd started screaming, PENANG! PERAK! PERAK! PERAK PERAK!* YES� the 1st runner-up is Miss Perak and YOU! Miss Penang, IS THE NEW MISS MALAYSIA DIVA 2003/2004 !!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Tears fell right off my eyes as they the DJ pasangkan lagu ONE IN A MILLION!!! MY SONG! Hugged Miss Perak who was also in tears (frust kot? Ke tumpanghappy dia kalah I menang? Hmmm) And then waved sekejaps kat audience! And then still in tears, I got crowned by Sara Loo, Ex Miss Malaysia (tahun berapa tah) and dapat all my sash, tropphy, crown, bla bla bla bla. Semuenye la. God! What did I feel waktu tu? SPEECHLESS! Am on top of my world, of everything! I WON! I was like, MISS MALAYSIA!!!!!!!

And then there was the group hugs, friend hugs, lover hugs, ooopps! Ex by now! Ehehehe. Amik gambar nan stop... still in tears... :) Make up still maintain... jumpe judges, borak kejap, photos, ade this one fella interviewed me a bit (dunt know whatever happened to him and his interview tu.. hmmm) And then packed stuffs, and brambus balik awal sbb waktu semue ended semue tu dah 1.30am kot. At 6am was my pick-up for my morning Amsterdam flight! Eheheh.. Pergi jugak tu! Dalam keadaan ohhh gumbira!!! Walaupun tak cukup tidur tapi ku tetap gumbira!!! Eheheheh

So that was pretty much it. Perjalanan I dari one of the contestants for Miss Penang state selections till the night I was crowned Miss Malaysia 2003/2004. FYI, my reign ended already last year when I crowned 2004/2005's winner... :) Anyways, twas great sharing the joy and experiences with everyone. I dont mind sharing since twas a great memories puun, kan? :) Well, kesimpulannye... Been there, done that, as MISS MALAYSIA DIVA 2003/2004... :)


The end

A Walk To Remember - [MISS MALAYSIA DIVA PAGEANT 2003/2004] Part III

A Walk To Remember - [MISS MALAYSIA DIVA PAGEANT 2003/2004] Part III

Ladies and Gentlemen; Here we go. On to the third chap, second last to this epic all-out-truth of my Miss Malaysia Diva Pageant 2003/2004.

Ok so� I�ve told everyone about how I got interested of joining the pageant, sampai lah I lalui liku2 nak pilih which state to compete for, sampai lah I got the title of Miss Penang 2003/2004� And so here�s the thing. PRELIMINARY ROUND � the Malam Berkemban ( Traditional Swim Attire for the Malays)� On that night, the judges will decide who will win three subsidiary titles; MISS EXOTIC LOOK, MISS BODY BEAUTIFUL and MISS BEST LEGS�

October 1st 2003 � Venue : The Bleu Bar Kuala Lumpur

The stage was set! Platforms here and there. Crowds makin ramai datang � UNEXPECTEDLY sbb MALAM BERKEMBAN? Sounded macam boring jer kan? So anyways, I was like terkejut jugak ramai yang datang. Not to my mention a lot of my cabin crew friends, stewards and stewardesses, straight and non straight semue ade to cheer me up.

In the changing room, semuenye berbatik lepas, berkemban, in their own ways, pilihan warna batik masing2. I went for GREEN� yes, again. Batik biasa tu, Kak Vee cut it to make it as batik lepas, and started melilit mengikat around my body. She did a wonderful job when she tied my batik lepas to the back and made it looked like a butterfly thingie just behind my back. How creative, and yes, HOW CEPAT some of the other contestants tiru jugak. ME being in kindda like bad mood, terus sound politely yet FIRMLY� �I�m sure your make up artists can do wonders. Why must ikut cara orang? Tak der identity sendiri ke? Anyways it�s cool that we might have the same style mengikat kain batik lepas kite but the way we handle �em, well, lets just let the judges decide�� Ade yang terasa, terus bukak ikatan and buat ikatan baru. Ehehehehe

My runner-up pulled out the last minute. Katanye ade something on. And ade jugak other states yang EITHER the runner-up tarik diri OR the actual State winner tarik diri so the runner-up took the place of becoming the States rep. All together malam tu we should have like 30 girls� tapi yang ade, 19 ke 20� I pun dah tak ingat� and I pun dah tak ingat which states yang ade dua wakil or what not. For sure yang I TAHU, my toughest fight for that night would be my runner-up, (who pulled out), Miss Perak rep and Miss Pahang rep, runner-up Miss Selangor and Miss Wilayah Persekutuan KL. But yang paling dekat fightnye for me that night was Miss Perak, Ayang Karmell.

Contest begun. Kak Vee was excited and nervous for me� touch up last minit sikit� and then off I went up on the stage. Did the same intro I did when I competed for Miss Penang State Selection � Only this time I felt tergugat sikit sebab Miss Perak did a wonder act with PANTUN as her intro, Miss Pahang siap MENYANYI as her intro� Miss Johor 1st runner-up siap bersyair lagi. God! I felt like, ok, I may have screwed my intro. But am not gonna screw anything else afterwards. So I did catwalk, very perempuan perempuan Melayu malu gittu, as choreographed, heart skipped a bit one too many times. Smiled throughout the whole contest, crowd roared and cheered, not mention jeered a bit, but not on my though� ehehehe� and then twas time for that one and one Q and A session with the MC.

MC : Miss Penang, could you pls step forward. Now Miss Penang, tell us, in your opinion, kenape ye, Penang is sooo special? Ape yang buatkan Penang so menarik to the eyes of the world�

THIS TIME AROUND I WAS PREPARED � I think�

ME : Well, thank you for the question. Bagi pandangan saya, ape yang buatkan Pulau Pinang itu menarik and fascinating to the eyes of the world would only be it�s white sandy beaches and it�s peaceful, different types and colours of community on the island. And how could you resist the sweet temptations of the islands� local FOOD! Food is Penang best thing to offer, dari makanan Melayu, to makanan Cina, to makanan India and the list goes on. You name it, you got it! And that�s why I�m proud to be a Penangite, and representing it here in the pageant, to the eyes of the world. Thank you, terima kasih.

And yes I ended it with a big smile again on my face as the crowd really went out of my expectations. Roared like nobody�s business. Ade yang screamed �THE CROWN IS YOU LAH PENANG!� Hehehehe

Then there�s the results part. Patiently waiting. Tonight�s 3 subsidiary winners will bring no technical points to the finals. However, the three top scores OVERALL akan dibawa ke malam finals. Tonights malam berkemban akan diambil 20 points to the total scores for the finals. Results out�

Miss Exotic Look � Miss Perak State Rep
Miss Body Beautiful � Miss Penang State Rep
Miss Best Legs � Miss Penang State Rep

Well, I kindda like expected to best legs thingie, but Miss Body Beautiful? God! I was shocked! So dalam tangan sekarang I dah pegang RM500 as each sub awards carries RM250. Ehehehe� and then for the top three high scores�

With the total composite scores of 17.5/20, was Miss Pahang state rep� then came in ME, Miss Penang state rep, with 19.3/20, then the nights overall winner was� was� WE HAD A TIE! Yes. Miss Penang state rep seri, sama markahnye dengan Miss� PERAK state rep! God! I was smiling. Crowd was� hmmm� mixed reactions� Ade yang roar ade yang jeered� how could this be? I mean, Perak and Penang? TIE? Walhal I lebih 2 sub awards. But after thinking for awhile, wait a minute, sub awards did carry any points, kan? So maybe Ayang Karmell was very good that night� well� what to do. Rezeki I was just to share the points with Miss Perak State Rep� We were the nights� winner. No 2nd place winner� just two first place winners and third place winner. That�s fair enough I guess� We�ll just have to break the tie points during the finals!



Next blog entries:
PART IV Miss Malaysia Diva 2003/2004 Pageant final night.


A Walk To Remember - [MISS MALAYSIA DIVA PAGEANT 2003/2004] Part II

A Walk To Remember - [MISS MALAYSIA DIVA PAGEANT 2003/2004] Part II




Ladies and Gentlemen; Welcome back�

Now� kat mana dah kite? Oh ha� part II. THE STATE SELECTIONS

From the day I decided to masuk Miss Penang State selections, to the actual day of competition, dekat nak 2 week jugak la. Everything was set. Make up artiste dah ade, my traditional state costume dah ade, accessories dah ade, shoes, yes� everything dah ready except for one thing� my introductions! I know mostly about WP and SEL, KED jangan tanye lah. But Penang? Ape yang I tahu about Penang? God! Help me!

Time time tu lah I started gabra carik kawan2 yang asal Penang ke or at least ade tahu menahu about Penang. I know Penang in general. But to win, and get the judges attention, and to make people believe that I know what I�m talking about, I need to do my homework. Masuk beauty pageants nih, it�s not always about �how you walk, how you standout the rest , how you catwalk and show your breast?� � hey it rhymes� hehehe. Anyways. It�s about having the brains as well� It�s about being sensitive to your surroundings i.e. the judges, the audience� the aura around you. Semue tu penting. So finally I managed to get some bit infos just a day before the state selections. Pening jugak nak menghafal my introduction lines.

September 10th 2003

Competition was said to start off at 10pm. So me and Vee dah got things ready, starting at 7.30pm. She siap make up and did my hair semue around 9.30. Then on we went to the club. As we arrived, I felt it already. NO, bukannye felt winning! Ish. I bukannye thatttt over confident ok! I felt a bit nervous la. Tu jer. Crowd ramai� as I entered the changing room, I saw like 9 people, all geared up, ready to give out their best. And when they saw me coming into the room, they were like �you�re not entering, are you?�� I just smiled and get things ready. Couldn�t be bothered nak dgr diaorang mengumpat ke, whatever ke. I had to get ready. Vee make up kan, vundabar! Memang meletop! So Chinese sikit dia make upkan I for that night as I go with a sort of a Chinese name�

Somewhere after 1/2 hour after we arrived, I dah siap salin to my state contemporary outfit, hair make up all out� contest began. Pilih number, I was lucky number 1 to go out. Ade baik buruknye dapat jadi peserta pertama nih. Baiknye, you get to set the paste, the standard. Tinggi you set, susah la yang after you tu semue nak kejar. Buruknya, you tak dapat nak see how far or how well the others can go or do, so that you have time to prepare backstage. Tapi, twas time for me to go first. So be it la kan�



Held up the mic, softly yet clearly said � �Assalamualaikum, dan Salam Sejahtera Ladies and Gentlemen, Tuan2 dan Puan2 sekalian. Wa ae mia si Lauriellai Lee, I�m 24 years old, dan saya datang dari negeri yang penuh dengan kepelbagaian bangsa dan tradisi, The Pearl of the Orient, the treasured island of, Penang!!!

As I held up my hand to wave the audience, they sort of like gave me, this one, big applause for me and I was like, �OK, I think I do this right!�

MC came up to me� he asked the standard q
MC: Miss Lee, pls, ye, tolong terangkan for us all, apakah yang dipakai oleh anda sekarang? Terang for us all, what is it that you�re wearing right now?

I took the liberty of being a bit funny sbb sebelum2 nih I tgk state selections yang lain, contestants semuenye serious je?

Me: What is it that am wearing now? Well, I�m sure it�s not called sport attire? Hehe (The crowd laughed a bit with me) On a serious note, what am wearing now in the traditional Kebaya Nyonya, with some added modern flavour, it�s what I call contemporary design, made to enhance the sweetly traditional design of this stunning outfit. (At the background, I heard someone shouted �Hey ini Miss Malaysia, bukannye Miss Overseas� cakap lah Melayu! It hit me like, sakitnye hati aku! Tak pe. Tunggu kau! Spontaneously I went on like this) I love you too honey!� (Having said that with a big smile on my face, the crowd really went wild applauding for me)

MC: It�s time for your second q. Choose a judge from this bowl.

And so I picked up number 2. And the judge was the top model, Ursya�

Ursya: Miss Lee, tell us the differences between Baba Nyonya Penang, Melaka and Singapore?

Tertelan kejap air liur aku! I mean, I didn�t expect this q! After pausing for while, took a deep breathe, gave a big friendly smile, and then I answered this�

Me: Perbezaan Baba Nyonya Penang, Melaka and Singapore? Hmmm� Although I nak cakap pasal perbezaan dari segi pemakanan, I pulak yang not so sure about it, sebabnye I pun bukannye from that, erm, keturunan. Sorry for being blunt, but I�m just being me. So my answer would be, the differences between the three keturuan Baba Nyonyas, is simply, erm, ehheeh (yes I actually giggled a bit ) Baba Nyonya Penang lives in Penang, Melaka lived the Baba Nyonya Melaka� and what can I say about the last one? Yes� they come from Singapore. Thank you�

Pathetic answer, yes? But at least, itu yang termampu dipikirkan oleh otak I nih at that time. So, what to do? But the crowd sure loved me and my answer as I catwalked for like for 1 minute, they cheered for me as though I already won my placing. Hehehe� I was lucky�

And so like the contests went on and all the other 9 contestants did the same thing I did but I think I�ve set up a high paste� I think. Although a pinch of me ade jugak menyatakan yang I screwed up big time but hey, I was just being Lea� the funny non edited version�

After nearly an hour plus, results are up. Tension jugak. Seriously takut� Vee kept on askin� me to keep my fingers crossed.

MC: Tonight�s state selection has got to be the toughest one, as there were two best and outstanding contestants. But the judges had already decided who wins the title, and the other one would be runner-up to the title. But let me remind everyone again that both contestants would be in the running for the title of Miss Malaysia Diva 2003/2004. Here we go. Good luck to each and everyone of you. The 10 of you looked amazingly beautiful but only two would go on in the running for that RM5000 main cash prize� And the 1st runner-up to the title is contestant number 3, Miss Nurnilam Sari!!!!

Yes� at that moment. I had that feeling I could just win. Sbb to me, Nurnilam Sari was like the best out of the rest and she could just be the only to give me �competitions�. So since she got 2nd , ehehe.. I can only giggle to know that I could be walking home that night with the title of Miss Penang/ Malaysia Diva 2003/2004�

MC: And� the winner for tonight, who will walk away with a sash, a certificate, a trophy and cash of RM500 and also a bouquet of roses, is, by only having 3 points away from the runner-up is, Miss Lee. Miss Lauriellai Lee!!! Contestant number 1!

Oh yes� I won� I won! Ehehehe� And so, me and Nurnilam Sari, made it to the finals. We�re like the 25th and 26th contestants to go to finals, out of 30. Tingal lagi 2 states, Kelantan and Terengganu, 2 from each states, so that means another 4 winners to go to the finals.

And so contestant number 3, Nurnilam Sari won 1st runner-up and I won the Penang State title, even by just 3 points. I admitted what she was a tough fight but I had my methods� didn�t I?

Next blog entries:
PART III The Preliminary Round
PART IV Miss Malaysia Diva 2003/2004 Pageant final night.

A Walk To Remember - [MISS MALAYSIA DIVA PAGEANT 2003/2004] Part I

-A Walk To Remember - [MISS MALAYSIA DIVA PAGEANT 2003/2004] Part I

Ladies and Gentlemen,

In this 4 parts entry, I will basically tell all the fun and exciting things happening prior to Miss Malaysia Diva Pageant 2003/2004. From the state-selections, to the preliminary rounds and to the final night of the pageant� Everything, all out! Believe me, t�was a lifetime experience one could possible asks for. Dalam entry nih, I akan write everything yang I dah lalui from A to Z� Well� hopefully I still ingat la kan? Hehehe� don�t worry. Boleh kot�

June 2003
The news is out! Miss Malaysia Diva Pageant 2003/2004, organized by The Bleu Bar Managements, will be held in Dec 2003! The winner will walk away for a grand cash prize of RM5000, plus other attractive prizes. The news it out, a lot have been hoo-haa-�ing� here and there. And yes, I heard about it. A lot of my friends told me to participate, and try the state-selections thingie. I wanted to enter the pageant, but since I was busy flying here and there, I kept of like, erm, unable to see whats goin� on during the state-selections. Mengharapkan kengkawan jer lah tolong CNNkan kat I� Hehehehehe
The scenario was like this. The State-Selections will choose the best two. Hmmm� how do I put this into easy to understand words ek? Ok ok� I got.

Malaysia ade, 15 States. So every week, on Wednesday nights, kat the Bleu Bar Club, diaorang akan buat State Selections. Anyone was eligible to participate. Participation fee was like only RM50 � Kalau dapat ke Finals, Alhamdulillah. Kalau tak dapat, RM50 tu kire burn ah! Ehehehe. Anyways, in the State-selections, the contestants had to do a brief intro, and answer two qs. One q was from the MC, which was to answer a q, like, explaining ape yang kite tgh pakai, ape kaitannye dengan Negeri yang kite nak wakili, and then answer the second q, which the q datangnye dari one of the three professional judges. And then you do your catwalk thingie� and that was it! Tunggu lah results. Malam tu jugak results keluar. The best two, will go to the finals. Kire dalam state-selections, The Winner for State and the runner-up will represent the State to the Finals.

State Selections
June 18th � Miss Wilayah Persekutuan Labuan
June 25th � Miss Sabah
July 2nd � Miss Sarawak
July 9th � Miss Johor
July 16th � Miss Melaka
July 23rd � Miss Negeri Sembilan
July 30th � Miss Wilayah Persekutuan
Aug 6th � Miss Selangor
Aug 13th � Miss Pahang
Aug 20th � Miss Perak
Aug 27 � Miss Kedah
Sep 3rd � Miss Perlis
Sep 10th � Miss Penang
Sep 17th � Miss Kelantan
Sep 24 � Miss Terengganu

Preliminaries
Oct 1st

Finals
Dec 20th

So ceritanye I, katanye, nak go for Wilayah Persekutuan at first. Tapi pikir-pikir balik, baik ambil Selangor, since July 30th yang for Miss Wilayah Persekutuan punye state selections, I was suppose to fly somewhere. So nevermind, I decided to take up Selangor. But then, Miss Selangor selections, only on August 6th. Waktu tgh kelam kabut tu, twas only like in late June. July punye roster dah out. That�s why I tahu I can�t compete for Wilayah Persekutan. Tapi, nak ambil Selangor, it�s it August. So basically I have to wait for mid July for my Augusts� roster to come out, and check lor, tengok roster, fly ke tidak. Tapi I dah called rostering department, mintak off on August 5th to 7th. So in the mean time, ade jugak pergi tgk selections states lain. Ade yang funny, ade yang serious, ade yang �Seriously you�re in the wrong contest?� Haa� yeap� that bad.

So after patiently menunggu� bile datangnye somewhere on 20th of July, roster flying I for August 2003 pun out. Check punye check, chis! I fly! The dates yang I requested tu, nan-adonye cuti! Geram sangat. Rase cam nak mc jer tapi, I said to myself, nevermind. Wilayah Persekutuan dah terlepas� Selangor no can do. Nevermind, why don�t I try Kedah. I don�t mind wakili tanahtumpahnye family I� hehehe.

Tapi as I touched down from London on August 26th pagi, petang tu I had some family matters that required me to fly back to Alor Star and yes, MELEPAS lagi ler state selections for Kedah. Dah elok elok cuti on August 27th tu, dah ade family matters kat kampung. I was like, mula to think that ade reason ke why semuenye asyik melepas je? Macam tak der rezeki nak kasik I masuk compete jer?

So banyak lah desas desus I dengar about me not competing; me scared la, me takut kalah la, that�s why tak masuk any of the state selections, tapi diaorang tahu ke the main reason? Tak semua tahu. Yang tahu are those whom I called, friends� And cerita yang I tak masuk pasal tak der sponsor pun ade jugak! Keji tau! Dan, cerita nih jatuh ketelinga one of our local designer, Abang Roy *NOTE � Not his real name*, yang boleh dikira like one of my best buddies, and favourite designer of all times�

So one day tah macam mana tah Abang Roy called me up and said;

Abang Roy : Ape nih abang dengar awak tak nak masuk Miss Malaysia sebab tak der sponsor?

Me : Astaga� siapa cakap?

Abang Roy : Kecoh lah satu Bukit Bintang!!

Me : Ish! Mana ade. Sebenarnye tak dapat cuti le� tu yang tak mampu nak masuk tu. Bukan pasal sponsor ape semue nye tu. I mean, kalau nak spend cari some nice traditional costume, I tak kisah Abang. I could always ask from you, kan? Tapi� cuti tu ha� sentap!

Abang Roy : Now dah negeri mana dah?

Me : Tah� tak amik tahu pun. Dah malas dah. Give up dah.

Abang Roy : Jangan cam tu. Awak leh menang lah. Abang tgk state state lain, biasa jer. Gedebas awak masuk, comfirm menang.

Me : Tah la Abang� I heard ade empat states jer lagi. Penang, Perlis � Kelan� (belum sempat nak habis nih)

Abang Roy : Ambil Penang! Abang ade kebaya Nyonya utk awak, memang meletop!

Me : La Abang nih. Kan orang cakap, orang tak dapat cuti. Hari Miss Penang Selections pun tak tentu fly ke tidak. Tak check pun roster.

Abang Roy : Dah keluar ke belum roster?

Me : Dah� bulan August nye dah keluar minggu lepas. But couldn�t be bothered nak check pun.

Abang Roy : Gi la check! Tunggu apa lagi. Ish dia ni!

And there it was� 9th and 10th of August 2003, OFF � 11th August � Fukuoka.
How could have I missed that info!?!?! God! Maybe because I was upset and already given up hope for it sebab 3 kali dah frust tertungging punye pasal, tak dapat nak compete for WP, SEL and KED� Tak sangka when all doors were shut tight, somehow one of the window was still open up for me� and yes, it was Miss Penang State Selections.

And so from there, bersemangat kental balik la. Sibuk nih carik some of my professional make up artiste friends yang boleh make up kan I. I mean, I do know how to do my own make up but when it comes to competing, I think it�s best that I relax and let the make up people do their work, right? Then sibuk masuk keluar masuk keluar boutique Abang Roy. Fitting the kebaya nyonya yang dia kata meletop tu. MEMANG va va vast! Twas in green� the kebaya top was a see-through chiffon material with a green and gold songket corset inside, with a matching green batik. Classic! And then off I went with my friend, Vee, cari accessories to go with my looks, and some hair clips, diamonds and what not. Vee, also will be my make up artist, who agreed upon doing my make up for the state selections, to the preliminaries to the finals, InsyaAllah me and her said. But at that time, not to win the top 2 spots yang I nak� It�s WINNING THE STATE title yang I aim for. Tahu la the 1st runner-up pun get to go the finals with the State Winner, tapi, self satisfactionsnye, ade ke? Nan ado! That�s why I aimed to win Miss Penang 2003/2004.

Next blog entries:
PART II Miss Penang State Selection
PART III The Preliminary Round
PART IV Miss Malaysia Diva 2003/2004 Pageant final night.

Saturday, January 22, 2005

The Life of a Beauty Queen Part 2

The Life as a Beauty Queen - Part II

Part two will bring you to understand the downpart of becoming a title holder - the upsetting moments - the times when you really felt down and lonely (Yes, been there nearly done that , wanna know what? Hint2 - If committing suicide is HALAL in Islam, I've jumped off my apartment long time ago - YES, THAT BAD!)

Apart from the being in the limelight, glamouritta and stuffs, at times, ade jugak, how should I say it, erm ,the disadvantages of holding a title? Ah boleh la tu. Janji paham ek? :)

When you win something, a title, a beauty queen title for that matter, you have to prepare ppl talking behind your back. What, you ingat, when you win, orang semue suka? Theres bound to be someone out there yang hated you for your winnings... you know? Dengki la cam tu.. :) But I couldnt stop all these from happenning. At one point, tooo much sangat bab bab orang mengeji kata mengumpat belakang nih that I nearly gave up everything ie give back the title, sebelum cukup setahun holding the title. MUJUR TAK BUAT! Ehehehehe... Thanks to friends yang ade, supported me, gave me some big tight slaps... ekeke.

Bile dah menang something nih, selain dari buat musuh, kalau kite tak kuat pada prinsipal diri, you'll drift away dalam arus glamour you, you'll be swipped off the shore of sights and control. AND that's when you make shits and shitty mistakes in life and on top of everything, you lose friends... lupe daratan dan BERANGAN lebih. Because of the tense of winning a title, a maintaining that level of respect even after u've crowned your successor, if you dont have that strong will power, you'll screw up things more because you wanted so much to maintain that fame and popularity that you sanggup do anything for it; abaikan friends, penting strangers, totally screw up lovers/bf because of temptations from other men around. The next thing you know, you're alone, all by yourself, with only your memoirs, your pathetic title, sach and crown FOR what its worth, the title, dah jadik milik orang lain! Get what I mean tak? Tak semestinye a queen has to suffer all these. I know I NEARLY suffered from it, tak semue lah yang I mentioned up there but literally some of the points tu ade jugak I suffered. But I quickly realize my mistakes and quickly turn back to see the falling stars and also to wake up sooner to see the sun go down... :)

That's all yang terlintas dalam pemikian ku for now I think. Part II memang I dah budget sikit jer. Its Part I yang best pun... :) Hehehehe....

Oh well... tak puas lagi baca? Pls find my blog entry entitled MISS TAK SERIK- SERIK from Part I to Part III to Extended Part IV ya if u wanna read up more... Interesting gak entry yang tu. Ok! Time to start another productive day - NOT!

Adios! Comment la entry nih ek?

Bye ppl!

Muahs!
Regards with load of love,
Lea

The Life of a Beauty Queen Part 1

The Life As A Beauty Queen - Part 1

"May I begin with the tradition, Assalamualaikum, and a very good evening ladies and gentlemen... From the gateway to the Northern Paradise, and from the land they called the treasured Island, I'm Nur Lea Laurielle Lailee Abdullah, proudly representing, the 'Peal Of The Orient', PENANG!"

Opening introduction for a contestant in any beauty contests is very very important and crucial. It is what the judges are looking for in terms of preparations, self-confidence and most importantly, how you carry yourself and portray yourself as a rep. of a certain country or states be it for that matter....*Note-Though I was not from Penang, but since I won the State Selection for Miss Penang, so nak tak nak, have to have lah. Long story on how I tetiber rep Penang. Will tell dalam dalam blog nih later on don't you worry. My point here is, walaupun I am/was not from Penang, STILL I took pride in representing Penang and did jolly well during the introduction round... :)*

Dear fellow blog readers...
Being a beauty queen, or should I say, former beauty queen*It's sad, I know. Once a Beauty Queen i.e Title Holder, the next thing you know after reigning the title for a year, you've passed on the crown and there you go, you're just another what they call EX or FORMER title holder... ain't that sad?* I know how it felt like being in the limelight, being in a world where everyone (well, technically tak der lah sampai everyone, tapi majorly, almost, everyone kenal you when you hold a title tambahan KL is such a small metropolitan city... so you tend to like tak leh nak larikan diri, orang confirm nampak/terserempak/kenal thingie) Oh by the way, I tend to like get around the bush a lot in this entry, so bare with me! Biasa lah, orang ghajin ghoyat/bercakap, gamaknyo gittu ler peghangainye even in blog entries... So anyways, t'was not easy to get where I once been to and starting off for me was kindda like, hard and tough, but I've pulled through and I can consider using the phrase - "BEEN THERE DONE THAT"...

Life as a beauty queen, it's not always so sweet, so glamourous, so ... so... hmmm... tak dernye 24 jam menarik being a beauty queen. A lot of responsibilities... a lot of things to be considered... so and so forth. But we'll get into that later. Dalam this entry Part I, I'm gonna concentrate on my starting points in general, how I got so used to it, getting the fame and name and glam and what not... the list goes on.

Aiming to be a title holder - or winning in any contests,... I never lah terlintas to win. First experience has got to be the best. Prepared so-so, didn't expect to win, and there you go, claiming most of the sub titles offered for the night plus grabbing the main title with is cash and prizes... Now siape yang tak seronok, right? Of course I did and it sort of like erm, gave out this new spirit in me to compete more, to go for more, to challenge myself more and see what was I made of, you know?

So as years go by, lagi banyak contests yang muncul in KL bak cendawan, and if I may say so, the reason why I was given that title sindiran "Miss Tak Serik- Serik" is simply because, ade jer contest, I masuk. Ade jer contest, nama I ade as contestant... I grabbed every opportunity that came and worked my way up...

And the years rolled by, I get more experiences yang I tak pernah thought I would be getting. The thrill of practicing a day before the pageant, the excitement getting to know new friends, the tense of competing, the heat of waiting for results, the moment of truth, either you win or not... you know... those kind of experiences that one find it hard to explain with words tapi you have to be in my shoes to experience how it felt like being in the centre of attraction - centre of the stage - all eyes on you - you're the favourite - you should have one but at times, rezeki tak der, you don't win. So technically, I've felt all those things I've said. I wanted all those things to happen to me, once, when I was in my teenage year; look where I am now? I've been there done that... :)

Life after a contest, ESPECIALLY when you win a title, would somehow or rather, change you and your life, be it a minor change. Tetap akan terasa. From practically NOBODY to SOMEBODY... serious! I mean I could recall walking around Star Hill with no one noticing you except that you're pretty lah (Ceh!) But after a victory upon victory, and you held yourself high, with dignity and a TITLE, that's when you start noticing something - lagi ramai orang noticed you, kenal you, wanna know you, wanna take advantage of you (aaaaa... I'll go into the disadvantages of being a beauty queen in my part II - part one semue manis2 lah). I know after I won Miss Malaysia which was my highlight throughout the years I've been competing, I mean, I can easily be detected by everyone. Even my pathetic face was at Nokia Exhibition centre KLCC last year and I didn't even know! Had a friend yang kasik tahu. Or else, ado?

And of course, after you win a title, especially something BIG, you tend to get a lot of attention from the boys - men... :) Seriously... I mean... men yang I tak pernah kenal, mengaku kenal I. Men yang I tak pernah nampak before this, mengaku have chatted with me face to face kat Starbucks.. like HELLO!? I maybe labelled as a BEAUTY QUEEN but that doesnt mean can treat me like I'm one of those priceless junk, ie the plain yet pathetic legally blond bimbo? Duh! I won my titles with pride and dignity as I wanna be claimed, A Beauty With BRAIN. Hehehehehe. So anyways... things might or should I say, went stirred up a bit with me with men and not to mention boys yang still dont even know 2 2= ???? Still tetap nak.. well.. you know.. try me.. ehehehehe.. I gave them the benifit of the doubts and ended it with this - FRIENDSHIP is what I can offer - LOVE, NO... I've got mine.. :)

Oh did I mention layanan from ppl is way way different as before you held up any titles? I know.. I know.. ppl will start talking about you.. go to clubs, the spinnin' dj will say "Hey here's Lea Miss Malaysia!!!" and etc... wow! You really like, WOW!!! See... I cant even explain, cam ne nih? :) But it's like, WOW!

So much for part I... see u in PART II -....

Friday, January 21, 2005

I'll fly away...

I followed the night...
Can't stand the lights...
When will I begin,
To live again,
One day I'll fly away,
Leave all these to yesterday,
What more could your love do to me,
When will life be through with me,
Why live life from dream to dream,
And have no life at all,
One day I'll fly away,
Leave all these cruel world away,
Why live life from dream to dream,
Let me die and let me dream,
So let me be,
Alone,
Here,
And so I'll fly away... fly... fly... away...

So it's Aidil Adha 2005... Anything new?

FRIDAY JANUARY THE 21ST, IN THE YEAR OF 2005...
Greetings everyone! Mueieueiueieue

Yes yes... it's EidilAdha so some people call it... Whatever we or one should call today, it's definitely a day to celebrate!!!

How was my celebration? Remember Raya Aidilfitri in KL when I slept off the whole day after makan tu makan nih. Berbeza lerrr beraya kat kampung. I think raya with nenek w/out family in Kedah, better la dari raya with family in KL. Like I started awal ok! Woke up at 6am... (memang usual timing I get up pun these few days a bit)... after morning prayers (Subuh)... YES YES I do pray ok... then panaskan ketupat pulut and rendang daging (both I tak masak.. ketupat belik kat auntie I, rendang tu beli kat this one mak cik yesterday I think. Tah, uncle I yang belikkan) then had breakfast with granny and then gi sembahyang raya. YES YES, HE picked me and granny up, Redzal did... :) Lepas sembahyang raya, he beraya dengan family dia gi mana tah, and I dgn granny beraya at home, then uncles aunties yang ade semue datang... not forgetting my pathetic looser cousin (Hmmm.. one point benci gile2 kat dia.. then terasa macam suke pulak kat dia.. now, back to menyampah tgk dia.. tapi kureng sikit la tahap kemenyampahan I kat dia sbb today raya kan.. ehehe). Had few good meals and kuihs and what not (some kuihs saki baki dari Raya Puasa.. yesss granny kept it well.. ). Then...... he came and ajak I gi tgk org buat korban sembelih and what not kat masjid.. YES YES REDZAL! Ish! Then along the way.. (waktu dalam kete dia and waktu kat masjid of course) we talked and talked.. (Topicnye? Ade ade adddddddddddddddee lah!) But nothing personal... just the usual catching up topics and what not... Although I did ask him mana gf... well.. lets just say a bit personal lah citerdia last night tapi hint2... BREAK OFF!!! Last night to she called to call it off... ape reason motif, I tannak tanye lebih2, kang kecik hati pulak kawan I tu.. ehehehee. So that was it... then... lunch - sleep - FP - then now back online. Gawd! No paragraphs ahhh today's entry? Soweeeiii!

Ok. I'll continue later2 lepas I buat a few adjustments to the site... :) Tunggggggu! Something simplers... :) Less bimboish! Ekekeke... more... matured side.. porrrdah! Yo yo jer cakap tgk tgk lepas nih nan ado yang nak buat.. silap hari bulan zzzzzzz.. ehehe

Oklah... hamba minta diri dulu

Regards with loads and tons of love,
Nur Lea Lailee (Melayu kan la sikit nama since it's Raya day.. ceh!)

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Continue - Sambungan that guy yang kat masjid tu.. PART 2

Hey guys!
OK so I took awhile answering my nature call.. so? what? Am only being human.. need me to go in details ke? Ehehehehehe

OK OK ... Back to the citer tadik tu.. As me and granny were walking twrds my car, this cute, tall, fair looking guy, medium long hair guy, came twrds me and we started talking:

THE GUY: Errrm... sorry. I think I kenal you...
Dalam hati I... 'but of course darling... siape tak kenal I... ekeke' OF COURSE NOT SILLY! Gile nak riak jawab macam tu? Eheheh
ME: Er... yer ke,.... tu la... muka u pun familiar...
YER YER JER AKU! FAMILIAR KONON.. familiar toek!
THE GUY: You, tak perasan I dah ke u?
The tone dia cakap tu macam dia dah confirm kenal I... maybe melalu how I speak kot... I don't know...
ME: Errr.. sorry la you... seriously... tak perasan. Siape ek?
MEK SERIOUS TGH BLUR TIME TU. Mak Tok dah "ehem ehem dah dalam kete"
THE GUY: We used to be neighbours remember? Well, technically neighbours. Your house is like 3 lots away from mine...
OH MY LORD!!! NO WONDER HE LOOKED FAMILIAR!!!
ME: Oh yeah... Now I ingat! Hey how has it been?
And the rest... ade lah... mana leh citer semue...

This guy is like, 7 years older than me. Used to be me and my familys' neighbour waktu I was like small, time tu my family resides in Kedah. The last time I saw him... Wallahua'lam... seriously tak ingat. It has been awhile...memang seriously I tak perasan dia. He just got back from Aussie. He's back for good. Gawd! What a shocking surprise. So we talked for a while... and then I said I kena balik.. dia kata jumpe je kat umah. So bile dah balik, mak tok masuk umah.... I duduk luar garden minum2 dengan dia. He's nice, tak ubah perangai dia dari dulu. Nama? Redzal.... panggil Abang Ezal. I remembered then... :) Finally! Its great to finally meet up someone yang otak 'orait' sikit! Then suddenly... he hp berbunyi.. YES.. you can say that again! AWEK sudah call la! Chit! Not that I'm expecting anything pun.. tapi, PERLU ke?????? Awek call time dengan I!? Sentap! Whatever it is he said dia nak lelepak selalu dengan I ngan Mak tok.. maybe bawak gf dia datang. I said.. "ha.. bawak lah.. "sambil senyum... "boleh I kenalan dengan gf u... " senyum lagik.. WALHAL DALAM HATIKU!!!!!!! It should have been this ayat "Ha... bawak la.. boleh I simbah dengan air panas tak pun halau dgn penyapu! Shuh Suhhhhh!!!!" ekekekekeke! Wait a sec,. motif nak jealous? KAN? Sedeh lah! Pasal laki pun nak feeling emo! Why la lately nih emo terlebih nih? Ish.. scarry marry la kan? :)

Dah I dah nak start melalut dah nih... well.. tomorrow raya... I'll try and squeeze in some time to write in. Kalau tak.. see u in a day or two... :)

Bye ppl!!!!

Malam Raya Aidil Adha 2005 - so??? Part 1

So... aside from the three entries (The epic 3-parts interview entry tu ler)... apa lagi nak tulis? Oh... I had fun chatting over the phone with ELINA... one of my friends yang kat myspace nih. She's the first SHE from myspace to really talked to me over the phone. Funny little gurl.. ehehehe. hey! If u're reading this, YOU'RE WAYYY WAYY COOL!!!!! Glad to have u as a friend.. :) Bersembang dlm phone ngan dia, asyik ketaaaaaaaaaaaaawa jer. I pun rajin buat joke memanjang dengan dia, apa lagik, ketawa la woman nih! Ekekekeke.. twas fun talkingto you gurl. Hope to do face to face chat with you really soon!

Allahuakbar Allahuakbar Allahuakbar, Lailla haillallah hu wallahu akbar... Allahuakbaru walillah hilham... ESOK RAYA!

Tadik gi semahyang Maghrib n Isya' at masjid with granny. In btween baca Yassin. Habis tu time nak balik tu, tgh nak jalan ke kete, this cute tall fair guy gave a smile and came up to me and talked to me...

NAK TAHU ape citernye? TUNGGU WRITE UP SETERUSNYE! Why cannot write now? SBB NATURE CALL! MEK DAHTAK TAHAN! Got to go! Bubye!

Miss Tak Serik Serik Part 3

3rd part out of 3 part interview, "MISS TAK SERIK - SERIK"; between CHE-DET ('CD' at "http://che-detz.blogdrive.com") dated Sunday, October 17, 2004



CD: Ha, pasal Miss Universe 2003 pageant. You, Miss Colombia, dapat 2nd runner-up, kalah kepada Fifi UIA Miss Greece (1st Runner-up) dan Ginger (MU2003)� Ape perasaan you pada malam tu? Dengar citer, tak puas hati siket ek? Sbb sebelum MU2003 pageant, you dah masuk Miss Universe Diva 2003 (utk pondan2 dan maknyah) dan dapat 1st runner-up, kalah kepada Miss India, Shasha Penang, dan you, Miss Mexico, berjaya kalahkan Fifi Sentul Miss Canada, Sherryn Miss Virgin Island dan Pasha Miss Argentina. So timbul rase tidak puas hati sbb you tak menang Miss Universe 2003 utk gayboys, betul ke?

LL: Fitnah! Heheheh� Dinch ah you all. Mana ade. I mean. Ok. Biar mak terus terang jer kat sini nah. The night of MU2003 when I got 3rd (2nd runner-up ler), I felt down. Really. Not because Ginger Wiiiilllllddd Flowers kalahkan mak.. (Ginger, Miss Gurun, jgn marah mak mah nahhhh.. ekekeee.. melawak pondan.. biasalahkan.. ;p) Not because Fifi kalahkan mak� I rase tak puas hati sebab 3 sebab. 1st � Mak BENTAT sangat malam tu. Everyone cakap I looked berisi and some even said, I looked so fat. 2nd � I was really really disappointed with my answer during the q/a session during the top 10. 3rd � I was afterall, 1st runner-up Miss Universe Diva 2003� alih2, got 3rd dlm gayboy punye contest, in a contest of my own world, with my own fellow gayboys. Probably I set up too high expectations on winning the title, that was my fault. Tapi, ahhh, entah lah nyeh. Bende dah lepas. Lepas jer lah. Nih mesti kes mak menangis overdose kat changing room tu kan? Kan kaycoh bab tu, macam ala2 mak menangis sebab ala ala tak puas hati kan? Memang mak tak puas hati. Tapi adakah people tahu ape sebabnye mak tak puas hati? Tak kan? People always jump into conclusions tapi I tak salahkan diaorang. They are just humans I guess.. But my prediction for that night (MU2003), Ginger was in my list, but not as the winner (Sorry Gin, this iswhat I feel. Jgn marah, jgn sentap, you�re still the reigning Miss Universe 2003� sembah ratu!) My prediction was like, either Fifi UIA Miss Greece, OR Fattin Miss France should have won the title, and more or less my pick was Miss France.



CD: Tapi after MU2003, you managed to secure Miss Malaysia 2003, kan?

LL: It's like, a revenge sort of thing. I prepared well for Miss Malaysia 2003. I knew I could do it and I wanted to win. But there was at one time, I thought, I might just get 1st runner-up again sbb waktu they annouce the top two remaining, were me, Miss Penang and Ayang, Miss Perak. Ayang to me was my thoughest fight for Miss Malaysia 2003. Eventually, she got second and I won the title.



CD: You lost weight a bit during Miss Malaysia, tul tak?

LL: Lite lite sugiii lah jugak, turun lah sikit dari time Miss Universe 2003 tu, bentat yang maha azab. Ehehehehe.



CD: You dah crownkan this years' winner, Miss Malaysia 2004, kan?

LL: Yeap. Miss Malaysia 2004 this year yang diorganizedkan by Kak Sharmila of the Milla Entertainments dah pun berakhir. Contest tu telah diadakan on the 10th, October, at Saloma. T�was like, just a day after MU2004.



CD: How does it feel to give away the title balik?

LL: I felt a bit, a bit only ah� sad about it. Thinking that I will no longer be Miss Malaysia, thinking about the wonderful things that has happened to me throughout my whole reign. Yeah, terase la jugak. On the other hand, happy jugak sbb dah tak pikul burden as a title holder. Tak gittu Gingger? Hehehehehehehehehe.



CD: Dan ape perasan Lady bile u all kena crownkan Ayang, yang merupakan 1st Runner-Up last years� Miss Malaysia?

LL: Biase jer. She was and still is a good competitor. She has got that spirit in her yang I look up to. When I was in Saloma witnessing MM2004/05, I knew it, she�s gonna be my successor. And when I crownkan dia, I sempat bisik kat telinga dia �This time, the crown is yours Ayang�. She cried� cried like there�s no tomorrow. And the she replied �Thank you�� in sobbing tears lah kan� eheheheehe



CD: Ok. Berbalik kepada MU2004/2005. Congratulations! Anak ayam, anak didik you sendiri bolot the title ek? How does that feel?

LL: Thanks� Heheheh� ala ala je la laaaaaaaa. Dah rezeki dia. Sejarah about Sharleen (Miss Venezuela a.k.a MISS UNIVERSE 2004/2005) and me� I got to know this adik2 baru dari UNITEN nih waktu dia buat show waktu heats of Superstar Search 2004 kat Bleu Bar� mak tgk dia, macam, ada pontensi. So I soksek2 carik infos about her and stuff. Managed to get her number, called her up, told her I wanna help her get into Miss Universe 2004. She was a bit shocked but accepted my offer of jadik anak ayam I and for months la jugak, we do a bit of training here and there. I kasik dia tgk vcd2 miss I, suruh dia buat homework, test make up, this and that. To me, TO ME ek, not to anyone else which I tak bother sangat, this gal� she is, to me, cute, witty, ade brains to go along with her looks. So that�s why I berani pegang dia. Pasal we, kalau nak jadik mak ayam, can�t expect anak ayam datang cari kita and suruh kite jaga dia, sponsor this and that. Like Sharleen, I saw the qualities in her, I saw that she could go far� I saw the younger me� heheheheheh� so that�s why I took her as my anak ayam. It works that way. It�s like, mak ayam will devote and cari his or her own anak ayam and doesn�t work the other way round. So on that day of MU2004/2005, although I sibuk with work as committee member, buat shows opening with GlittersDotCom and what not, I tetap sempat siapkan dia, head to toe, kasik dia pakai dresses I, rambut, accessories, shoes and stuffs, semuenye I tanggung. And it was worth it. Worth sponsoring everything that I did. She was more than I expected. Honestly, I didn�t expect her to be in top 10, but when she got in, I was like, ok, Alhamdulillah. She made it. It was then up to her to continue her struggle and give out her best in the q/a session. And when she answered the way she did that night, there was a pinch of me saying she could be the next MU. And masin mulut mak, menjadik. Alhamdulillah. Dah rezeki dia� :)



CD: Before Sharleen, our new Miss Universe 2004/05, you memang dah berpengalaman ke siapkan orang utk contests nih?

LL: Ade lah you all, sekali dua tiga, tolong2 siapkan adik2 belakang stage.Tapi, I kalau siapkan orang pun, tetap maintain dalam keadaan drag. Hehehe..Ingat tak Miss Two Faces? Ehehehehe.. tetap dengan evening dress. That�s me. Biar lah apa orang nak kata janji I nak tampil meletop. Itu hak peribadi.



CD: Ha, that�s another thing. Heard you ade bukak boutique kan?

LL: Hehehe� well, I wouldn�t wanna call it a boutique but if you insist, ok jer la la la la la. I�ve got my own designs of dresses, from simple dresses to complicated designs. And from dresses, I�ve got wide range of accessories, which all nih, after I dah release, I selalunye sewakan. Accessories I sewakan, dresses I sewakan, shoes jer tidak. Bulu2, feathers2 utk shows pun ade I sewakan. (dengan nada perli)



CD: Nak perli mak bab bab bulu lah tu� heheh. Banyak ke dresses you tu?

LL: Banyak tu tak der lah banyak, ade lah dalam 29, 30 dresses. Most of it are my size, tapi ade yang size kecik2 jugak. Dalam MU2004/2005, the winner, Sharleen of Venezuela tu obviously wore my dress. Other contestants yang pakai my baju were Miss Paraguay dan Miss Spain�


CD: How lah to promote? Addresses ke, ape ke?

LL: Sesiape yang interested, nak take a look ke ape ke, can always call me at ***-*******. Tapi kena buat appointments lah kan. Sbb usually the days yang I would be free would be from Sundays till Tuesdays. Wednesdays till Sats, normally I�d be busy with shows.



CD: Oklah Lady, last question dah nih. Ok ke?

LL: Tarkkik you all� (tarkkik tu tak kisah�)



CD: And your advice to adik2 yang ingin jadik macam� macam� macam you?

LL: Jadik macam I? Perlu ke? Biar lah I sorang jer jadik macam I� eheheheh� tak gittu CD? Anyways, Hehehehe� Hmmmm� TIADA JALAN MUDAH NAK BERADA DI ATAS. WORK HARD, STRIVE HARD, IGNORE WHAT PEOPLE SAY, JUST BE YOU AND DO WHAT YOU WANNA DO. IF YOU WANNA BE SOMEBODY, WORK IT OUT AND NEVER GIVE UP YOUR HOPES AND DREAMS. Actually, it�s not easy to be on top, so called famous, people knows you and etc. I know it sounds fun. Believe me, it does.I mean, I really do know how it feels. Like, now, gi memana pun, even when I�m not in drag, still, people can kenal me as LL. It�s fun, knowing people kenal u. Feeling lah kan kadang2 tu, tapi, at times irritating jugak tapi nak buat cam mana, kan? Hehehehe. So in a way, I know how it feels like to be someone yang orang kenal kiri kanan, someone yang orang keeps on talking about, someone yang so called famous and glamour and all that sh*t. Sorry, mind my word. Tapi to get where I am now, I�ve worked hard. Did shows here and there, kena maki caci hamun sana sini. Kena kutuk. Masuk pageants tu pageants ini. I guess that�s how I got up here. But I guess it won�t be long before I head down. So I�m preparing myself for that moment. And for those yang nak merasa how I feel now, work hard. Strive hard. Be outgoing. Don�t feel shy of what and who you truly are. But most of all, just be yourself�:) But let me remind you one thing, it�s not always, all the time, shinning when you�re up there� Just be prepared� :)

Miss Tak Serik Serik Part 2

2nd part out of 3 part interview, "MISS TAK SERIK - SERIK"; between CHE-DET ('CD' at "http://che-detz.blogdrive.com") dated Sunday, October 17, 2004

MISS TAK SERIK-SERIK


CD: Macam mana you boleh mula2 start masuk pertandingan ratu- ratu nih?

LL: Startingnya dulu dengan Miss Teen World 2001 tu kawan mak lah (by the name of Angah from USJ) yang ajak masuk. Saje suke2 katanye. Waktu masuk pertandingan tu, si Angah dan Along (both from USJ) lah yang siapkan I. Along make-upkan I (time2 tu, nak make up sendiri? SODEH!!! Tak gherti ok!) dan Angah siapkan dress I. Simple jer dress tu dan waktu bertanding tu, ada lah perasaan takut jugak, first time lah kata kan. Tapi, malam tu was obviously my night I guess. Luck was on my side. As what people selalu cakapkan, beginners� luck, kannn. So malam tu mak mah menang. Menang besar lah jugak. I sapu 7 sub awards out of 10 yang dipertandingkan. Yang I tak dapat Miss Congen, Miss Photogenic dan Best Evening Dress.



CD: Lepas dari pertandingan tu, terus semangat lah nak masuk contest lain?

LL: I�d say somethin� like that lah kot. Selepas dari pertandingan tu, nama kite naik jugaklah dalam IRC dalam channel2 Sayangabang dan Gaymalaysia. So, macam, yer lah� biaselah. Ade contest lagik lepas tu, masuk jer� semangat kata kan�



CD: Tak serik ke? Sampai 19 contests?

LL: Correction, it�s 20 plus� hehehehe. Well..., serik? Kalau u tanye I soalan tu dua tiga bulan lepas I�d say NO, serik is not listed in my vocab. Tapi now, I think I dah .. macam.. that�s it lah kot, for now. I wanna rest. Nak take some time off from pageants and what not. Nak jadik org belakang tabir pulak kot. Siapkan orang ke, jadik committee ke ape ke�



CD: Macam mana leh jadik serik pulak tiba2 je?

LL: There�s this saying that goes, when you get up in the morning, and you can only think of one thing (ie shopping ke, nak quit pageants ke ape ke), then go ahead and do it. So one day I got up, thought to myself, dah dah la tu. Malasdah la nak bertanding. Mak nak rest kejap, maybe for a year or two, then buat comeback. And so I did. I decided to quit or should I say, rehat for awhile. Tu jer kot.



CD: Tapi drag tu tetap lah? Shows semue tu? Tu pun nak stop jugak?

LL: Oh but of course darling, of course nye NOT! No way nak stop semue tu. Drag harus lah. Tapi tak der lah tiap tiap hari. Kalau cam tu, baik mak mah nih jadik pondan drag 24jam. Hehehe. I drag lah kot for clubbing sekali sekali, untuk shows and what not. Shows I shall not stop for now sbb that�s what I like and enjoy to do. Yes, I enjoy pageants too. But that�s competing. In shows, you�re performing as a performer. That�s something differ. from competing in beauty pageants.



CD: Ok, berbalik pada citer ratu2 nih. You dah bertanding dengan gay boy, you dah bertanding dengan pondan bertetek, ade beza ke?

LL: (Smiles) Banyak bezanye. You see� bile kite bertanding sesama gayboy, you�d feel like� cam mana nak cakap ek. Cam nih lah. Kalau u bertanding dengan pondan bertetek, THAT�S IT! You ada rase tau macam bertanding dengan pompuan real. For some of these pondan berteteks, ade yang dah buat fefets lah, tetek pun meluak2 besar. So, bile u, (ie, ME) as a gayboy yang tak makan pills, no hormones, no injections no nothing, bertanding dengan real diva drag queens like those nyahs,you tend to put yourself to the test whether u could act and be like them as well. But when you�re competing with gayboys, although u�re dressed up like a girl, tapi deep within you know for a fact you�re still competing with gayboys and that�s about it, nothing more. Being in a contest where you actually compete with real diva drag queens, you tend to challenge yourself more. Could I beat this girl? Could I kepit suara like her? And etc. It�s hard to explain actually but bile u dah dalam contest tu, then only you�ll know.



CD: You tak makan pills or hormones or inject anything? Serious? (khi khi, soalan ni Lady yg suruh CD tanya)

LL: Serious shit no joke.. although pembetulan bab bab dagu tu, mak admit, memang mak buat. But that�s it. I still am, and will always be a gayboy. Mintak simpang lah nak buat teteks ke fefets ke, takut jugak. But I have nothing against people yang buat. Sebagai contoh mak nih tak prejudis, mak still kawan dengan gayboy2� tak kire lah lembut ke st8ing ke ape ke, mak nyah friends pun a lot. I take people as what they are. And I�m happy being the way I am now. Who says you have to inject stuffs to be pretty? Pretty is one thing dear, but, the important thing is the beauty from within plus your brains� you don�t wanna bebrainless beauty now would you.. hehehe



CD: Before I tanye you kenangan manis, kite start dengan kenangan pahit sepanjang you involved dalam dunia ratu, tak kire lah ratu gayboy or ratu maknyah�

LL: (LL diam sekejap, tunduk,� mengeluh, pastu dia jawab) Banyak nyeh kalau mak nak citer bab bab pahit lasam nih. Kalau nak listkan sepenuh-penuhnye, mak rase, hai, sampai esok lah gamaknye (ketawa siket tapi CD tau dia ketawa sedeh) Antara yang paling tak dapat terima, orang kata I lupa daratan. Maksudnye, I nih asalnye gayboy, dah pandai bergaul dengan pondan bertetek, dah bertanding ratu2 pondan nih, dah lupe diri as gayboy. Tolong lah. I tetap gayboy dan bawa peranan gayboy. Kat pertandingan ratu2 pondan maknyah pun, during rehearsals, I pergi dalam keadaan tak shave, serabut serabai. Ha, percaya tak? For all I care,I�m gonna compete on behalf of the gayboys in town and that�s it. When Imanaged to place 1st runner-up in both Miss Universe Diva and Miss World Diva, 2003 and 2004 respectively, secara tidak langsung I rase I naikkan nama gayboys in town. Like, letting maknyah tahu, biarpun dia gayboy tak bertetek, dia mampu beri saingan. Tapi what do I get in return, kutukkan oleh gayboys in town. Selain dari tu, yang nih tak der lah perit sangat sbb masuk telinga kanan keluaq telinga kiri. Lady tu kekwat, berangan, sombong la, feeling lah, this and that. Orang yang tak kenal mak memang kata mak kekwat sebab muka kite muka kekwat. Pastu bile dah kenal, �Ala Lady, sorry lah dulu I kutuk you. I ingatkan you kekwat tapi u tak, kan?� Cam tu lah gayonye. Others, I take it as, the way life is. Tak amik pot sangat. Kenangan pahit during contest, biase lah. Bile you know you should win, tapi ade orang sabo. Ha, tu pahit sikit lah. Bab bab sub. awards, yang mana kite tau, even pun kite tak patut jadik pemenang, ok, katalah, contoh, sub award utk Best Evening Dress. Katalah dalam banyak2 tu, I tahu dress I pun tak leh lawan dress Miss A, tetibe, Miss B yang menang walhal baju Miss B tu lagik azab dari baju mak nih ha, ha.. time2 tu lah rase, sentap ah! Ehehehehehe Tu jer kot.



CD: Kenangan manis?

LL: Obviously bile I menang. Tak kiralah ape ape pertandingan pun, tapi yang paling tak dapat I lupakan, and forever akan I kenang, Miss Teen World 2001 sebab that was my first gayboy beauty pageant yang I menang and Miss Malaysia 2003, sebab that was my last gayboy beauty pageant yang I vowed to compete and I won�

Miss Tak Serik Serik Part 1

1st part out of 3 part interview, "MISS TAK SERIK - SERIK"; between CHE-DET ('CD' at "http://che-detz.blogdrive.com") dated Sunday, October 17, 2004



Miss Tak Serik- serik



2001
1.Miss Teen World 2001 (Miss Teen Venezuela)
Placing: Winner
Subsidiary titles: Best Legs, Best Hair, Best Casual Wear, Best Catwalk, Miss Vogue, Miss Body Beautiful, Miss Perfect Woman

2002
1.Supermodel of the Year 2002
Placing: Winner
Subsidiary titles: Best Legs, Best Catwalk

2.Miss World 2002 (Miss Colombia)
Placing: 1st Runner-up
Subsidiary titles: Miss Intelligent, Miss Natural Beauty

3.Superdiva Beauty Queen 2002
Placing: Top 10 Finalist
Subsidiary titles: Best Legs

4.Queen of the Year 2002 (Miss Curacao)
Placing: Winner
Subsidiary titles: Miss Intelligent, Best Evening Dress

5.Desert Queen 2002
Placing: Top 20 Semifinalist
Subsidiary titles: Nil

2003
1.Miss Kebaya Blue Bar 2003
Placing: 1st Runner-up
Subsidiary titles: Nil

2.Miss Uptown 2003 (Miss New York)
Placing: 1st Runner-up
Subsidiary titles: Best Catwalk, Best Legs, Best Make Up

3.Miss Universe Diva 2003 (Miss Mexico)
Placing: 1st Runner-up
Subsidiary titles: Best Evening Dress, 2nd Runner-up Best National Costume

4.Miss Penang/ Malaysia Blue Bar 2003
Placing: Winner
Subsidiary titles: Nil

5.Miss Universe 2003 (Miss Colombia)
Placing: 2nd Runner-up
Subsidiary titles: Nil

6.Desert Queen 2003
Placing: Top 10 Finalist
Subsidiary titles: Nil

7.Miss Malaysia Blue Bar 2003 (Miss Penang)
Placing: Winner
Subsidiary titles: Best Legs, Best Evening Dress, Miss Body Beautiful, Miss Personality, Miss Hot Favorite, Winner for Miss Malaysia Swimwear round

2004
1.Miss World Diva 2004 (Miss Dominican Republic)
Placing: 1st Runner-up
Subsidiary titles: Best Presentation on Stage ,Best Evening Dress, Miss Intelligent, Miss Charming, Miss Personality

2.Queen of the Queen 2004
Placing: Top 13 Semifinalist
Subsidiary titles: Nil

3.Miss Diva Warp Talent Queen 2004
Placing: Top 10 Finalist
Subsidiary titles: Miss Body Beautiful

4.Miss Universe World 2004 (Miss South Africa)
Placing: Top 15 Semifinalist
Subsidiary titles: Best Hair-do

5.Queen of the Night 2004
Placing: Finalist
Subsidiary titles: Nil

6.Miss Eligible 2004
(Withdrawn from the contest after managed to get into the semifinals due to personal reasons)

7.Miss Diva Of The Year 2004
Placing: Top 20 Semifinalist
Subsidiary titles: Nil

8.Blue Boy Supermodel Contest 2004
(Withdrawn from the contest after managed to get into the semifinals due to personal reasons)

9.Supermodel Diva 2004
Placing: Top 10 Finalist
Subsidiary titles: Nil

10.Desert Queen 2004
Placing: Top 5 Finalist
Subsidiary titles: Nil

11.Miss Shadows Disco 2004
(Withdrawn from the contest after managed to get into the finals due to personal reasons)


Aiyohhh Cik Lady L�Oreal, banyaknya pageants yang hang masuk�memang sesuai CD bagi title kat hang� Miss Tak Serik-Serik�.Ala-ala kalau hang rakam sebuah album dari setiap pageant yang hang masuk di atas, harus ada local artist yang bertaraf Diva rasa tergugat & jeles lalu buat drama kena assault tepi jalan atau paling busuk pun tulis e mail layang memburuk-burukkan hang.

Lady L�Oreal yang CD kenal, sejak zaman we all sekolah kat lagi.. memang
seorang� yang ambitious, temperamental, adorable,� talented, ting-tong sikit,
witty, melodramatic, passionate� dan berani mati. Kat sekolah dulu, she loves to be in the limelight, suka join macam-macam aktiviti ko-kurikulum macam debate, drama (hmm that explains her melodramatic attribute), loves music & performances.(dulu, ditelinganya tak pernah lekang dari walkman/ discman).� She�s willing to do whatever it takes accomplish her dreams. Apa yang dia nak, itu yang dia akan dapat.

Ala-ala Gusti Putri Retno Dumillah, she lives on her dreams. Hanya dirinya saja yang dapat memahami apa yang dia mahu, dan bagaimana dia harus dapatkan apa yang dia mimpikan. Sebab tulah ramai orang salah anggap dekat ponen ni. Macam-macam label orang bagi dekat dia (suatu list yang sama panjangnya dengan senarai ratu di atas, yang hanya akan menyentapkan Lady jika CD tulis dekat sini).No matter what Lady, even though we hate to admit this, but� Nabeela (our mak ayam from Kedah)
and I are actually proud of you for being able to achieve of what you are longing for since your teenage days. Hang ada brand hang sendiri kat KL nih. Kudos to you..

CD sempat lah gossip menggosip� dengan Lady selepas dari Miss Univere 2004/05 (yang telah dimenangi oleh anak ayamnye sendiri, anak didiknye) dan selepas Lady menyerahkan kembali title Miss Malaysia kepada pemenang baru Miss Malaysia 2004/2005, Ayang Karmel. Berikut adalah perbualan sokseksoksek diantara Che-Det dan Lady Loreal a.k.a Lea Lauriella Lai Lee Abdullah.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Good morning Malaysia!!!

Hello everyone! My my, what a wonderful morning... time to start another day!!! :)

It's great to see the increasingly number of those who have subscribed to my blog. Thank you so much for your interest. It looks like I really have to keep on writing, at least, once a day. But I guess I could go and do better than one blog entry per day... hehehehe... true per, semuenye ade bukti? Selalu per I write more than one entry per day. Its just that whats starting to worry me is this. I've got like more than 300 friends in here, some may read some may not. And like some of my friends only knows English, some may only understand Malay, so, well, lets just say have to advanges to understand both languages. Question! Do I have to do my blogs in two versions starting from now? Kalau iyer, mati la hem! Nak buat dua bahasa... there must be an easier day... I mean, way... hmmmmm. I'll think of something...

Well.. let me see.. hari ini... sudah 8jam 34minit berlalu. And I've been awake like.. ermm.. let me see... 2 hours plus? Woke up at 6.30am tadik *yeapppp... terselayas bangun lewat lagik.. chit!* Had my morning prayers, then off to the kitchen, prepared breakfast for me and granny... what was for breakfast? Hmmm.. roti air panas and scramble egg with cut chilis (red and green) with onions and pepper dgn kicap... :) Sesiape nak resepi, tak gherti2 nak mintak?

Now why do I think I'm beginning to sound so formal with the blog write ups? Maybe pasal yang dwi bahasa tu. Ade tak programme yang membolehkan u write in English, and with an instant click, you get the whole bloody thing in Malay? Ehehehehehe... If sesiape tahu of such program, do let me know ek? :)

And so, afterwards, well, after breakfast that is... cleaned the kitchen... shuuhhh my granny to go and rest in her room *hehehe bad of me... wanted to her to get enough rest... that's all* and then watered her plants... ugrh those plants! I could just.. URGHHH! And then, here I am, online, listening to Hindi Sad Diamonds.mp3 on RealPlayer while writing up this entry and also replying to my mails... *thank you so much for the amount of emails yang berlambak everyday... rase cam star lak.. hehehe.*.. OH LOOK! It's Faith Hills There You'll Be on my RealPlayer now.. yeap, new song pulak.. takkan la nak ulang Hindi Sad Diamond tu on and on and on. Poning eden... :)

Oh well.. I'll catch things up with you guys later2 during the day ek... parents coming over to celebrate Raya AidilAdha in Kedah... tah la.. tak sure. Balik nak raya sini, or picking me and granny up to go back KL. I'm sure granny tannak sbb she wants to be here, AND ONLY here. Tough luck Mama! Bapak! I guess you guys have to ddrrrrrrrrrraggg her kalau u guys really nak dia stay in KL. I know I wouldn't force her...

Ok. Time to run! See ya again, later alligator!

Bubbye... *PS - Don't you just love that GOODBYE AUDIBLE in YM? The one like the girl wearing a hat (like a stewardess for US Airlines thingie) saying, BUBBYE... OHCAY NOW, BUBBYE. BUBBYE in different tones, so, so, annoying dumb blonde bimbo way of saying bubbye tune... you guysknow that audible? That's my all time fav! SO CUTE! Contra kan? ekekek kutuk punye baik tapi at the end, my fav audible. What to do.. freedom of choice kan? Ehehehehe

Regards
LEA - One Day I'll Fly Away... Leave all these to yesterday...

Hanginnn nyyee!!!

Welllooo people... wwwwwasssuup!!!!

Do I sound, erm, FAKE, to you alls??? Hmmmm... dah le mek kuarkan blog berani mati confessing about my myself... the truth... ade jugak some ppl yang still in doubt, and question me, about my photos? Are those real? Photos tu mine ke ape ke? I mean, put yourself in my shoes, or, at least, try imagine orang tanye u pasal your real pic.. tanye, betul ke itu pic you ke tidak.. sometimes sekali dua boleh la kite tak kisah sangat. Tapi nih, kadang2, at one point, sakit gak hati, tul tak? I mean, kalau tak cayer sangat, nak jer I get ready like in those pics and make a point to every single of my more than 300 friends to come over to a garden party (garden party pun make sure lah malam ek, kalau pepetang 4pm tu, cair la mekkk.. ) yang those pics were me and I am those pics... kan? Like, banyak lah dalam nih dah kenal I siapa even before I posted those pics... Tak der lah.. Bukannye nak naik angin, cuma, sentap... kan? So this is I guess a good way I nak lepas geram... tak pinpoint sesiape, tak menuding jari tak sebut nama sesapa ek. Kalau ada makan cili, terasa, sorry la, mek tak tanggung..... I took the liberty to work and strive have to get to the point where I look like in those pics, tapi sedeh sangat when ppl try to question u whether tu betul ke idak gambar u ke idak... Why, tak nampak sangat? Tak nampak sangat like I nih macam ****? Nampak reallly like girl? Or the other way round? ape2 pun, BEAUTY LIES IN THE EYES OF THE BEHOLDER and I can't say anything on your behalf.... what I can say to defend myself, is, try asking these ppl BABEPARIS DJSLAYERZ ELYAZ CLARISSA NABILVELASCO and some others yang memang dah pernah jumpe me, yang dah kenal I inside and out.. eeee.. geram sangat! Tapi tak per.. tak per.. sabar.. baik mak mah gi minum dulu! Chow!

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

What do you see in ME? COMMENTS NEEDED!!!

Now seriously... now that am all out about my erm, well, you know, my erm, gendre... the truth and what not... It was like, amazing to see that ramai yang still decided to let me their friends... ade jugak lahanat2 yang tak puas hati, dari memuji menyanjung mek terus now nak kutuk maki just before they don't to f**k me as in with a P***y! Mampus lah! Tak kuasa dah nak be nice nice goodie goodie nih. Either you take me as I am, or not.. Tu jer...

:) On the other hand, to those yang accepted me, why THANK YOU SO MUCH FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY BROKEN TOILET BOWL.. I mean... the bottom of my HEART. But the truth is, seriously, you guys yang accepted me, you guys should give kudos to yourself sbb mampu give ppl like me a chance to state their mind and heart out and also be a part of we humans call it FRIENDSHIP.. :) Nak I sebutkan nama yang baik2 hati accepted me even after I wrote that truth blog thingie? Tak per... siape yang rase dia accepted me, you know la diri masing2.

Tapikan, seriously, JUST CURIOUS. Some say through my pics, it IS Obvious that am not a she, I mean, confused she/he thingie. But some say it's NOT sooooo obvious.. and some even went to the extend of saying, NOOOOOOOOOT OBVIOUS AT ALL... I mean, I know beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder, tp from my eyes, HIDUNG I saje dah memecah lubangkan I saying am not REAL u know... what say you guys? Which part of my face yang OBVIOUS says that am not a real she... Which part of my face yang buatkan I SOOOOOOOO OBVIOUS like a REAL she? Hmmmmm Let me know. Or should I post this over the blog? Hmmmmmmmm

Oh well.. do comment on this entry ya.. PLS!


Regards
LEa LaUriELLe Lai LEE AbdULLAh de LA Fuentes --- > De La Fuentes tu dah melampau sangat dah le tu.. eheheheh